Many things to be updated. But shall just touch and go on a few... time constraint!

Firstly, I am so glad that Rat is back in sch. I missed her so much lah dey...hehehe.... It's good to have her back and to have someone to go lunch with and all. Ya lah... pathetic me dun have many frens. Acquaintances memang berlambakkkkk..

Went to NYP to check out their auditorium. It's huge, obviously. But wat scares me was the stage and how the hell we're gonna do it up. Normally at such places, set designers would be employed to do up the backdrop and all...but ours would be just DIY. Yeah. Wat's new...given the little budget that we have. .... I am a lil scared because it's like I am heading the musical... and what if it turns out less than expected? Sigh.... it freaks me out big time ah ....I just hope It will all be alright....

Managed to meet up wit the bf ...FINALLY. after 2 weeks... hehehe.... But honestly , I never really felt that apart from him even when we did not meet up. I guess his sms-es and constant reassurances helped. I do feel that , at this moment, our rship is pretty much stable... unlike the fisrt 5 mths ( beofer the break - up ) that we were togther. Then, I had bouts of insecurities and was always wondering abt the many "what-if"s?...I still get a lil cheesed off when mum asks abt when we are getting married and all... saying that I am not getting younger and all. Duhhhh.... i know best how old I am, literally and figuritively...BUt I am happy . Not that we are plannign..we are... but there is really no need to rush , u know. It will happen when the time comes, Insya'Allah. I dun see the point of rushing into one and then every now and then , u face problems becos of personality clashes, overstressed over the rship and all. Seen it happening around me.... So I believe, let nature takes its course. We are happy. And will be even happier when that time finally comes :)

Ok...time for breakfast.... I am on a workout spree... been working out like no one's business...heheh...

ciaoz!

There is this Chinese drama at nine pm -- Mars vs Venus. I know alot of my friends and even the bf follow the series. Basically , it is about the differences btwn men and women, marriage, deceit and the works.

I need to pen down my thoughts as I have been quite disturbed by the last two episodes. It clearly showed how manipulative women can be and how determined they are in getting what they want, regardless of the consequences. Tat can actually be an advantage, I suppose, if women play up their assets ( I dun mean physically ) ,however, when it is at the expense of others, they end up portraying themselves as selfish bitches.

The episodes also show how vulnerable men can be when exposed to seductive objects. Really. We all know how weak men are in that area. Dun get me wrong . Sometimes, it is not 100% the men's fault. I have to admit that we women can be just as bad ...just that it totally freaked me out. ..To see how a marriage / relatonship can crumble just like that.

I actually cried during the last part of today's episode because I felt so much for the wife's plight. Perhaps, i could relate to it in one way or another. ...

I have talked to my bf before about how I get cynical about relationships and all because I know that even if we dun want and prevent such things from happening, sometimes, things just happen. Without much rhyme or reason. And when they happen, all we can do is wonder and keep wondering why. I told him too that as much as I want to have someone by my side , I do shudder at the idea of a marriage turning bad. He told me that that is not a healthy thought and we should believe and trust our partners, and God to protect us.

I guess I just get too paranoid sometimes.... even now. I hope God protects me and my loved ones.

Let there just be love...

First n foremost, congrats to my fren Rat for passing her driving... 10 points seh!!! not bad baby.... hahahah....pls get well soon and come back to sch. I got no fren !!!

This made my day at work so much more bearable. Thank u honey.



Much Loved.